In my final moments
once my pulse begins to end
and my vision fades
I am met with the clarity in my action
to take the razor to my flesh
never to wake again
as the poison runs deep
deep into my veins
a familiar sensation rising deep within me
like a fractured dream that dwells
in the comfort of lost memories
never to be seen again.
deceived my hope
deceived by my own actions
the only escape to this
is a razorblade to my throat
my pulse will fade
as my vision ends
never to breathe again
I swallowed the rest of the pills
to have an assured rest
after I am met with the razor
blood stops to flow
my skin has turned cold and palid
never to breathe
never to wake again...
(writhing in silence)
again...
As all hope fails me
it is in my final moments I realise
life is not worth to be lived for
broken and torn
by the weight of misery
time and time again
it is now I begin to drown
when all hope fails me
like a broken nerve
I lose all feeling
like a memory lost in seclusion
of every rotting promise left untouched
I will fly...
fly, fly... (to the sky)
I will hang
I will be free
hanging as a lonely soul
rotten inside
twisted and half decayed
gravity don't fail me now
once I fall off the chair
I will embrace nothingness
everything is ending
just the way I intended
cut my wrists
hang the noose
kick the chair
and say goodbye
life is not worth to be lived(for)
life is not worth to be lived(for)
life is not worth to be lived for...
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False Hope for a Better Tomorrow is the first demo for my project memory of rose
taking inspiration behind I'm in a coffin and happy ending, this 2 song demo goes through spiralling topics of mental decline, self harm and self hate
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